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Well, it is looking more and more like we are not going to be able to find a suitable home for Luna. There is just nobody out there willing to take in a potentially dangerous dog. Everyone is more than happy to refer a dog trainer or a behaviorist. Each person or place has given us a different one however.. This just isn't going to work. People are more than happy to refer a behaviorist, but none of them would ever take on the responsibility that going through that would require.... both monetarily and just in sheer time spent. They will happily look down their noses at someone that will put their dog down in a desperate situation, but they would never actually put themselves in those people's shoes and completely alter their life for a misbehaving dog. It is looking more and more like our only option is the one I have been dreading most. I know she can't live with us anymore. The risk isn't worth it. I made the decision that I don't want to live with an animal that would just as soon bite me if the mood strikes than kiss me. There is something really wrong here that I am pretty sure a trainer would not be able to cure. It would be us having to adjust and change so that we would limit the opportunities for her to strike and well, we have been living like that these last few days and that just isn't a long term option. and there is no way in hell that dog will be present when we have children. It just is not an option, she has to move out.... and truly, with all the bleeding hearts and all the PETA folks out there.. I am positive not one of them would take her in at this point, but they would be glad to scream at me for what I am planning to do. I can't stand that, and I don't care. No amount of behaviorists or trainers professional opinions are going to change the fact that we can no longer have her in our house and we are completely unable to find anyone else willing to take her in. At the end of the day it is us that have to live with her, and live with the consequences of both decisions. I am not happy about it in any way, but we may be forced into the circumstance where we have to bring about the premature end of an animals life that we love dearly. I can honestly think of no alternative.

we still have her

So Luna is still with us. The SPCA basically said that they would take her, but they would immediately euthanize her. There would be no chance for adoption because of the incredible amounts of dogs they already have that HAVEN'T ever bitten someone. So we took her back. Anna is still very set that she will not be staying with us permanently. Which I understand... There is just too much of a chance she will do that again. Yesterday Anna took her to the vet just to see if there was something physically wrong.. Nothing. The vet says it isn't a physical thing and her basic recommendation in this circumstance is to put her down. I am really against this, but it is looking more and more like there will be no choice. We are now looking for someone, anyone really that will take her in and save her life. I know now that we can't keep her, I just can't believe that our only option would be to kill her. I love that dog, even if she has bitten me. Anna will flat not allow that to ever happen again, and I understand. Someone could really get hurt, well really I am the only one that would probably get hurt. I want to be able to just accept the fact that she will maybe hurt me. I could live with that, but Anna can't. It is looking more and more like we have no choice at all and that really really sucks.

what a weekend

I know it's been a while for this from me but, how's this for a weekend? Aside from the Harry Potter book, which I am about 3/4 of the way through at this point. I went and conversed with a buy at the Apple store about computers for the business. Went really well, and I am starting to genuinely get excited about this. Still a long way to go, but it is moving well so far.

Later on I get a call from my mom saying that they are considering a move to Birmingham.. Alabama. My only thought really on that was that it would be a pretty extreme culture shock for them.. This will be MUCH different from anywhere else they have ever lived. Pretty interesting option though... but my question is.. who moves to Birmingham? It might be really nice though.. who knows, I've never been there.

The last thing was easily the most scarring. Yesterday afternoon there was a major meltdown by Luna. She had been acting really weird all weekend, but yesterday we were all sitting on the couch and I went to move a little and apparently it rubbed her the wrong way because she immediately went into insane growling mode. Well, I pushed her out of there to get her away and let her chill out, but she just came back. This time ready for battle. When she came at me I just grabbed her neck and tried to get her to stay still and calm down. She was NOT backing down. She has done this many times for really no reason and usually will calm down and snap out of it after a few seconds, but this time she wasn't settling down. She was just sitting there growling at me like a a freaking wounded wolf. Well, I just kept holding her there, and she kept growling. Eventually I pulled her towards me a little so I could hold her a little tighter and keep her from biting and she just snapped. Just absolutely flipped out. She has bitten me before, but she usually just mouths me a little to tell me she isn't happy. This was different, she bit me as hard as she could and just was fighting for her life. I had to basically take her by the neck and pin her to the wall to keep her ripping my hands off. It was a scary situation. She bit me pretty bad this time. I have a couple puncture holes on my hand, scratches up and down my arm and some great teeth marks and divots running across my wrist. A good bit of swelling to go along with it as well just from the impact of it. well.. this was all Anna could take. The dog is gone. We are giving her away today. This really is heartbreaking to me. I just want my dog, but I understand if she is going to bite me for no real reason, I can't really have her. I can only hope that she will find a home where someone who knows how to handle her anxiety issues can take care of her and get her to calm down. I just don't know what else to say about it. This hurts... Both my hands from the bite and my heart. I really love animals. and I really love that dog, even if she did bite me and annoy the hell out of my 90% of the time. I'm having a lot of trouble seeing her go. I can't do it, Anna has to take her away by herself today because I just can't face it. I just hope Luna will be ok. I'll really miss her

Best movie of the summer

Transformers is easily the best movie of this summer. Just totally blew all the sequels out of the water.. Just great stuff. Funny, entertaining, silly, great effects, great storyline (in my opinion at least).. a little too long.. but great all the same. This is a must see movie. I am tempted to go again.. which is really crazy... I never do that. The last movie I saw more than once in the theater was the phantom menace... yeah.. episode one.. 8 years ago. The only reason for that really was that I was in Peoria with nothing to do but go see a movie...

Anyway, I will spare you spoilers. Good stuff all around.. I will say this though... when there is a sequel (which there will most definately be) if they kill optimus prime... I'm done.. I can't take him dieing again.. It's just too much...

Today is the day

So it is finally here. Transformers is out wide today and I am all set to go tonight. I went from excitement to dread, to acceptance... it really has been a roller coaster ride. Right now I would best be described as giddy... I can't sit still. I am VERY excited about this thing. I can't help it. I have been hearing a real buzz around this thing in the last couple days. The critics are lukewarm on it, which is to be expected... but the fans are absolutely nuts so far. That's huge. It definitely seems to be a real pleasant surprise. This thing could be absolutely huge. lets hope... full report coming soon.